27 on the 27th

I’ve lied.
I’ve cheated.
I’ve stolen.
I’ve said really mean things behind peoples backs.
I’ve engaged in one too many immature Twitter fights .
I’ve been “that [drunk] girl” at way too many birthday parties/weddings/corporate awards events…
I’ve judged others.
I’ve let people down.
I’ve said things I didn’t mean to hurt other people.
I’ve done and said some really shitty things in my 27 years.
But also- I love.
I have been hurt.
I have hurt.
I have apologized.
I have forgiven.
I have gathered strength..
and I have provided it.
I’ve given grace.
My heart is kind.
I am compassionate.
I crave connection.
I’m not the same person I was 10 years ago.
I’m not the same person I was 5 years ago.
I’m not the same person I was last year.
Sometimes I feel like I’m on a never ending rollercoaster ride…
but still, I love.
I’m not perfect, but I don’t expect anyone else to be either. 

Today, I turn 27 years old. Since my birthday is May 27th, that would make this day my golden birthday and this year my golden year. I kicked off my golden year by conquering one of my biggest fears–jumping out of an airplane. When you get down to it, I don’t think the actual act of skydiving is my biggest fear,  but more the act of letting go of control. I don’t want to let my fears and insecurities continue to cloud my vision of the beauty all around me. I am not without fear, but I’m done letting it stop me. I’m done letting it have control over my life. I know this will be a process, but jumping out of that plane today was a good first step. It was something I never thought I would be courageous enough to do. But that’s another thing that I am….#28- Brave.

So here goes nothing. I’m going to live my golden year to the fullest. Loving life, loving others, and loving myself.

**This post was started May 25th, 2017 but completed in real time, May 27th, 10:111pm

An encounter with a butterfly.

Have you ever met someone and had a feeling you knew them in another life maybe? That happened to me today with this beautiful butterfly. I was on my way to an appointment and was feeling a bit anxious over life in general, but I was powering through my day as we often do, suffering in silence. I ended up parking on the wrong side of the building so I began walking in the correct direction and I saw him lying on the sidewalk, struggling, just waiting to be stepped on.

I stopped to see if he would allow me to pick him up. I figured if he was capable of flying he would get spooked and carry on but he crawled right on to my hand. He didn’t look maimed but he seemed a little anxious too. My heart connected with his sweet little spirit and all I wanted to do was make his day better. I wondered if maybe he was dying so I took that photo and promised to remember him fondly. I didn’t want to be late to my appointment but I also didn’t want to leave him behind. I stooped down to sit him next to a bush in front of the building and it almost seemed like he didn’t want to leave my hand. I promised if he waited there, I would come back for him after my appointment…

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starburst galaxy.

This NASA/ESA Hubble Space Telescope image reveals the vibrant core of the galaxy NGC 3125. Discovered by John Herschel in 1835, NGC 3125 is a great example of a starburst galaxy — a galaxy in which unusually high numbers of new stars are forming, springing to life within intensely hot clouds of gas. (Source)

Hello there.

I’m not sure if I’m talking to the person reading this or the person writing this to be honest. So much has brought me back to this space. My first post of 2017 shared here was very much about where I am and where I want to be. I spoke about feeling like a complete and total mess right now and (if I’m going to continue the trend of  being honest) I still am. That almost feels liberating to say. Or type. Scary- but liberating as well. So much of blogging and social media and LIFE IN GENERAL is all about making sure people think you’re put together. Making sure they can’t see your mess.

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Balance.

It’s taken me a really long time to get back here. I’ve started to write many times but nothing ever seemed just right. I’ve felt this way before but, although I’d still consider myself new at this, I’ve never stayed away so long. Maybe that’s because I’ve been wondering…what is this? Why am I doing this? What am I accomplishing here? What am I sharing here? Is it too much? Is it not enough? I suppose these are questions that lots of bloggers ask themselves at one point or another and maybe I’ve already asked them once before myself in some way, but in truth I think I never really explored the answers because I got really wrapped up in the blogging culture…

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Saying goodbye to Summer 2016

Well, Summer is officially over and here I am. It’s been a few days and I think I’m a mess. It helps though that a storm is rolling in right now so the weather is making me happy. I tried to show up here as often as I could but as usual, Summer stole my heart away and with that, my time. I suppose I’ve come here to cope *dramatic sigh*.

The end of summer always feels like the end of the year for me, is that odd? This is always the time of year where I look back on the past 12 months and ask myself what I really accomplished and what I want to do moving forward. I know most people do this at the end of December but for me, that time is right about now. Usually I’m left with an overwhelming sadness to be honest. I think it’s a combination of my favorite season being over and that I never feel like I’m where I want to be or I’ve done enough to get there, but this time is different I think…

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Date Night: Lauryn Hill concert

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Hello friends!!

Still quite busy with work work work work work (did you sing it?) but somehow Andre and I managed to get out for a date night last week! Yes, last week…I’m over a week late in posting about this but work work work..yada yada, you get the idea.

In fact, we’ve been so focused on our Total Money Makeover and other goals that we haven’t done a very good job of making time for us to spend together that doesn’t involve the business side of our marriage. Before, it was all play. Think, dope downtown apartment, eating out every night, spending on whatever whenever. In the last year, it has become all business and basically zero play. Neither of those things are good, so we’re just trying to grow together and really learn a little something about this thing called balance in this thing called adulthood.

Enter in the (last minute) scheduled date night! We’re definitely going to make these things regular and a top priority. They might not always be this awesome, but time together is what’s really important and what makes these times awesome! Since we haven’t had a date night in f o r e v e r, we decided we would treat ourselves to a concert to kick off this whole, making date night a priority thing. Concerts hold a special place in our hearts because our very first date as boyfriend and girlfriend was a concert and we STILL talk about what a wonderful (crazy.) time it was…

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Currently: April

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Currently trying to get my life together.

ahhhhhhhh.

I feel like I’m always saying that and the law of attraction tells me, the fact that I’m always saying that…is why I am always saying that! Ha! I need to find a new saying. I need to get a good affirmation going. Any suggestions?

Let’s get started with this little catch up, shall we?

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Currently: March

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Happy St. Patrick’s day everyone!!

I couldn’t think of a better day in March to kick off my official once a month “Currently” posts. I’ve seen other bloggers do them and I’ve always thought they were so cute and I always enjoy reading them so I figured I would give it a try myself :) I hope you’re wearing your green today!

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Life Lately…

Hey yall! I miss ya last week, but there was just lots going on (more on that later). Even though my week was trying, I ended up having a much needed weekend of good, fun things happening that totally rejuvenated my soul. The universe totally blessed me this weekend by sending me a snowy(ish- but I’ll take it) weekend filled with good times with good friends and QT with my man AND a Panther’s win that puts us in the SUPER BOWL!!!!!!

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I couldn’t be happier for the team, my home state (I’ll incude you too, SC. We’re all in this together! Carolinas unite!) and of course, my sweet husband who is THRILLED. He moved around as a kid but came to NC in middle school when he was just starting to make important life decisions …like where his sports fandom loyalty would belong… and the Carolina Panthers stole his heart above all other teams in any sport.

He was actually able to attend last night’s playoff game with pretty much all of his best friends (with the exception of a couple) and two of his brothers. They were scattered in the stadium but were able to tailgate together and he really had a great time. Can’t wait for the Super Bowl partying to commence!

brothersbrothers with an appearance by someone’s shadow haha

friendsfriends! And no, that is not me on the top left haha

The day before the game (Saturday) we went over to a friends house to go sledding on his family’s property. It was my first time sledding and I had SO much fun despite the fact that I wasn’t wearing appropriate shoes (Thanks Nox) so my toes were literal pieces of ice. I also took a spin or two around on the four wheeler and it was my first time driving one so that was cool too :)

I didn’t take any photos other than on the way, but I got some really nice pictures of the scenes from when I first woke up and then right before we left for home. It really turned out to be a wonderful weekend.

winterwonderlandGood Morning! (you may have caught this on ig, @jlynnjustad)

littlesnowmanMust stop before sledding to made a little snowman atop the car :)

ridingtosledriding to the sled spot!

goodnightsnowdayAnother (no filter) snap from ig (@jlynnjustad) Goodnight snow day!! ♥

And of course, I can’t end this post before talking about how stoked I am for The Bachelor tonight. I am really hoping that Ben makes it known to all the girls that he didn’t appreciate their behavior against Jubilee. If I didn’t already love him, he just melted my heart coming to her defense against those girls (mainly Amber). My thoughts on Jubilee are coming in their own blog post here soon. Right now, my top 5 is:

• Jubilee

• Lauren B.

• Amanda

• Caila

• Olivia
(as much as it pains me and I think shes the new ‘mean girl’)

Tyler and Caitlynn’s wedding ceremony is tonight on Teen Mom OG and I’m really excited about that as well because I think they do amazing stuff for the adoption community. Sharing their story, every painful, joyful piece…I think it’s really something and the fact that they’ve been together 10 years and are tying the knot after all they’ve been through?! It’s fairy tale status to me for sure ♥

Anyway, I hope you all had a wonderful weekend and a fantastic start to your week! Love to all of you!!!

xx

Fall Scarf Exchange 2015!

Some of you may be wondering why I would have chosen to participate in a scarf exchange when I’ve made it very clear that summer is my favorite season and where I’m from in NC, winter comes to visit for a couple months and if it brings snow, it’s about an inch IF that and it melts as soon as it hits the ground.

Well, I may still have the same 4 winter scarves that I have had since my first snowboarding trip in the 8th grade, but I LOVE new summer scarves! They are lightweight and versatile. I wear them around my neck, as a decorative hair wrap sometimes or as a wrap with a nice dress.

So when Courtney from A+ Life announced that she was hosting a scarf exchange with Liz and Whitney, I knew I wanted to sign up immediately. I checked the dates to make sure I could get everything out on time and when it all looked good, I made it official!

I’m SO glad I did this because as soon as I opened my package my heart skipped a beat. My partner who purchased for me, Melanie, doesn’t have a blog but enjoys reading them so she decided to participate and I couldn’t have been more pleased with what she chose for me!

I told her I like summer scarves, I have a simple style but that I like texture in thicker summer scarves and I wanted to leave it up to her what she chose for me. She decided to bless me with TWO scarves! In a summer scarf style she chose an ombre dark blue with a gorgeous, classy floral print along with a heavier (but still fairly lightweight) plain grey (my fav!) with a simple textured design look. They both fit in so well with my style, I love them!

Ok so on to the big reveal!!!

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Not only were they both a perfect match to my style, but it’s probably good she included something a little heavier because with having relocated a few hours from my hometown, the chances for winter weather that brings snow that sticks to the ground are a little higher. I suppose I’ve been in denial that I no longer live at the beach. I doubt we will get another freak snow like we did last winter but still, temperatures are a little more chilly a little farther inland. Not as windy though so that’s cool ;)

I haven’t worn the grey one yet but I did wear the blue floral to dinner with friends this past Saturday night!

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Just a casual candid photo, ya know ;) Not only was the lighting terrible for a photograph but I see the scarf was placement was off center. I won’t blame the photographer (cough cough SKB) so I’ll blame the wine :)

Not only did I get these awesome goodies but I got to send some to Jessica at Secrets of a Stay at Home Mom! I loved getting to “meet” this fellow NC blogger! Maybe online meeting will turn into irl meeting one day! Check out what she received from me here!

Thanks so much to Courtney, Liz and Whitney for organizing all of this! It was a blast!

xx